Welcome and congratulation for being free inside. This is a great step.
The elders knew I had doubts. I had hours of discussions. They try to make you feel guilty which should lead you back.
I also told my wife that I would accept blood for me and our son. She said I have to tell the elders otherwise she would. So I did. I discussed again for many hours.
Our marriage broke... finally I was df'd for apostasy, because I celebrated my sons birthday and because I kept firm that I would accept blood.
So it is better not to meet with them. Or if you meet with them just say "I am fine. I have a very close and precious personal relationship to God. But this is personal so I won't discuss this with you."
Then you need to be strong and say No, No, No. "If I need spiritual help be assured that I will call you." And of course you never call.
If you meet them, be prepared to be asked in different ways "do you believe this is god's organisation?" or "Do you believe the the governing body is the faithful and discreet slave?"
These are standard questions to detect apostasy.
Anyway I wish you all the best.