Ex Beth -
“I am as happy as I have ever been since I cut the chains, in so many ways.” (RB)
RB What do you believe now? Were you happy when you were PIMI? Do your new beliefs provide hope for the future?
Wow, where do I start, I was a late teenage convert in the 80's and I came in thanks to a perfect storm of circumstances. Never ever dreamed that I could end up a JW, just got sucked into the vortex of no escape. Never really believed all of it but I wanted it to be true and was prepared to give benefit of doubt drink the cool aid and enjoy the vast array of new friends, probably like most of us. I had a good wife, a good job lots of new friends and yes I was mostly happy except for deep down burning doubts about flip flops and past failed predictions etc.
What do I believe now? Do I believe in God?? Yes, I think this is a reasonable conclusion however he may not be at all who or what we think he is. Seems to me that who ever comes up with the best explanation for God is able to claim a special relationship with him and subsequently gains a big following, wealth and especially power over other peoples. This is how it goes!
My mind is now unchained and I have resigned myself to the understanding that it is better to questions that cannot be answered than answers that you cannot question.
RB