You say you "just want a peaceful environment where you can find God and deepen knowledge of the bible without drama". This sounds very much like me long ago. Yes, I wanted knowledge about end-time prophecy - nothing more. What went wrong???
Well, I was lured into a high-control group who weren't what they said they were... That's what. There is ONLY drama and you are getting a taste of it now. This is an all-or-nothing religion. A fear-based religion. As far as learning the "bible", much of it will be slanted. (Other religions teach the bible too....without drama and all that goes with it.)
You seem like a determined person to try and "make it" in that religion. Everybody here has told you the truth and are not profiting by telling you our experience.
Well, if you do go....keep to yourself...don't tell your business to anybody as it will most definitely be repeated and you will be an evening's entertainment at some gathering you won't be invited to. It will be a lonely existence.
And, remember, you have NO real friends there! Be wary of those who DO try to be your "friend" since they are on a fact-finding mission!
With all that has been said, I wonder, what is the attraction? With all I know, I would have to have a grudge against myself to tolerate all the garbage in this so-called religion. Now, I'm older and wiser! Glad I'm out - but sorry about time wasted. We would spare you this. Good luck whatever you do!