So that I can say that I was honourable?
What about my wife being honourable. Since I have faded I have lost every person I loved. I have no one who cares about my honour.
I know it might sound silly, the whole honorable part but I don’t think it is. When you marry someone you make a promise to stick by them thru everything, right? Yeah you got a raw deal but I think your wife probably thinks she got screwed too. Can you put yourself in her position for just one second? She thought she had married someone who shared her religious beliefs, who would be the head of her house and support her “spiritual” pursuits and suddenly this person, her life partner, his whole goals change and she can’t deal with it. I would be devastated if I found myself in her position, you my dear didn’t marry a cafeteria catholic, you married someone whose life is shaped, controlled and manipulated by a religion and you knew what would happen when you decided to fade, how did you expect her to react?
Your wife has been leading the life she expected to live, you are the one that changed and radically so. I would advise you to not do something which you might later regret, at least when you are divorced you don’t owe anything to anyone, but while you are married that’s a different story.