in my case, it was both. i was in from age 14 to 42, and i always had doubts, could never quite swallow everything taught by the WTS. It was a cumulative of both things, and, the last year I was in I knew it was time to go.........I was called in to a semi-formal meeting over something I supposedly said to a sister, and it quickly turned quite ugly. Funny thing, one of the elders in on that meeting who was defending the sister is now out and his wife and i are best friends, always were. they live close to me, and i regularly am at their house. he and i made our peace over what was the last straw in personality clashes that made me leave. in my heart i am happy it happened, because it made it easier to leave. And, of course, I lived through 1975, with the accompanying castigation of the sheep by the FDS, and then, when they changed the generation meaning in 1995, to me, it was like another slap in the face. I left physically 2 1/2 years later.