Now I must share with you an event from my tortured past that has haunted me for the past 50 years or more.
It all happened on my fifth birthday, it was also the day I started school.
There I was for the very first time leaving the company of mother at home and I remember well the feeling of sheer terror as I entered the gates of the school. I turned and looked at my mother, she was smiling, yet i could feel no muscle within my face wanting to smile back.
Then, it happened - I was attacked! a group of boys grabbed me and, twisting my jacket, they tied me to the school railings. I heard the school bell ring, everyone just seemed to vanish, and there was I on my own for the first time and tied to railings. I couldn't move, I couldn't flee from this scene of horror.
I stayed that way until recess when I was 'claimed' by teachers and taken into the warm confines of a classroom.
That day has haunted me ever since. I completed basic schooling in high school but have never had a happy feeling about school. I wish I could be different, I wish the memories would go away but nothing works.
Please don't be angry with my modding actions - I'm a tortured soul. You must forgive me. I'm sorry.