Long before I left, which is 6 years ago now.
I had two Elders unbeknown to each other show me from scripture that Jesus was God. One said he wasn't sure about the Holy Spirit yet.
Both were in their 70's at the time. One had been a JW for about 50 years, the other had been brought up a JW, his parents had both been of the anointed from the 1920's on.
On both occasions it was in private at their homes. At the time I never said a word just sort of nodded my head. I wasn't going to admit to thinking along same lines. I wasn't that stupid. Also if I said anything who would believe me no "two witnesses" and both were highly respected Elders.
I think what held them back was both of their familes their wives and children were all strong JW's and they didn't want to hurt them.
Both died not long afterwards one from a brain tumour, the other from cancer.