think im gonna have to get reinstated and let them win!

by Cordelia 73 Replies latest members private

  • uninformed
    uninformed

    Cordy,

    I'm new here but I've looked at some of the advice. Here's the way I see it. Fornication is not against the WT its against yourself and Jehovah. All of us make mistakes, that's what the blood of Christ is for. To pursue a course of promiscuity is not good for you, me or anyone.

    I wouldn't dare want to be reinstated if I were you unless you want to be a witness. I feel that the basic moral teachings at the KH are based on the Bible. Its the hypocrisy and the mind games that bother me.

    First, before you do anything, make peace with Jehovah and Jesus. The rest will follow.

    uninformed

  • jhomo2
    jhomo2

    cordella

    It takes a real man or woman to think for themselves. DO you want freedom ? Then you must start the deprogramming process. I say that because the reason you are a dub at present is because OF programming. So start now, make positive steps toward the goal of thinking for your self without the Jsociety dictating to you. I will lead you to your goal hehe

  • jhomo2
    jhomo2

    uninformed says

    quote

    "First, before you do anything, make peace with Jehovah and Jesus. The rest will fol"

    end quote

    Hey uninformed go and screw with the JW offical web site - not this one. You are a 99th degree cultist now F off.

    What cordella needs the most is to distance herself from those greedy prick dubs

  • Cordelia
    Cordelia

    ok thanks you guys,

    i darent tell you how i feel now i will get shouted at!!!! but i had a car crash on thursday going to the meeting (that'll teach me!) and hve wrote my car off it was preety bad have been in hospital since and wouldnt you know it my lovely little brother whos wedding i missed and who wont say a word to me, came to see me i said do i have to half die before you speak to me what kind of religon is that? he said hes so sorry i still feel the same and unless i come back i have no hope! i said hey im coming back to speak to u all' him and my mum in shock both said ' but its not enough you have to get like you once were (pioneer)'

    so guys now i finally realise im kidding myself to get reinstated for family and then leave , thats impossiable with a family like mine!!!! im doomed if i go back and ji know its not the life i want!!!

    my husband (were not divorced yet) has been so nice he wanys us to be ok coz of my daughter, and i figured if im getting reinstated i may as well go back and try and make the best of things! but i just dont love him anymore,

    and to make thing even worse the boyfriend who said hed never get back with me has come on the scence (coz of my car crash) and i felt soin love with him! and now i feel like i should tell my family, 'look ive tryed but i dont want the religon and im still in love'

    maybe i need to just do that now i realise i dont want to be reinstated, but the hubby has been so nice i feel bad but when he touches my hand i cringe thats not right is it??

    i know im writting too much but im drunk so i dont care but im sorry, you are all right i but i guess i just want telling what to do,

    which is stronger a family love, (so id get reinsstated and may as well go back with hubby!)

    or a love that feels real? (and i should stand my ground and tel everyone the truth with how i feel!)

  • diamondblue1974
    diamondblue1974

    Sorry to hear of your car accident and I do hope you recover very soon.

    If it makes you feel any better, I am a little wee tipsy too....way to many bottles of Corona and way too many limes (hic), its been a while since I have done this but hey once in a while wont hurt.

    You need to get yourself well before making any decisions one way or another; whatever you decide you will always have friends here unconditionally! I hope you remember what that is when and if you go back.

    DB74

  • Legolas
    Legolas

    Sorry to hear of your car crash, I am glad you are alright.

  • Cordelia
    Cordelia

    im ok ta very much,

    just want someone to tell me to go with the hubby which means i have my family etc or to go with the bf who i feel stronger for and lose eveything but at least if i do and then i lose him i will be free!!! but can i live with myself hurting my family again!!

    god i want shooting!!!

    db glad you are tipsy wish we had chat!

    almostathesist, i know what you mean guess i should have red hair,

    tijkmo i have finally got speakers and ur stuff is fantastic!!

  • Legolas
    Legolas

    Be true to yourself!

    No one can make that decision for you or tell you what to do.

    Weigh your options, look at all sides (As much as you can) and see what is best for you.

    Good luck.

  • KW13
    KW13

    i know there is a lot of pressure on your shoulders, but you've got to keep going! originally i wanted to go back, but i saw what they were like. You have knowledge here of what the society does and has done. You need to decide, do their values completely represent you as a person? As a believer in God, do you see God in the midst of JW's? Be strong and remember people are here to chat to, if you end up being a JW again then still the offer stands. Good luck with your decision :)

  • Enigma One
    Enigma One

    I think God was trying to tell you something with that car crash....don't go to the KingDumb Hall. LOL....Ok..just kidding.

    I'm glad you are ok from it though.

    So by going back to a man you don't love this is going to help things how exactly? Being dishonest to go back to him is only going to end in disaster isn't it? So you put up with the situation for what 3 years? 5 years? Then leave. Won't he be even more crushed knowing then you never loved him? Cut him loose, let his heart heal so he can move on with his life too.

    Personally, if you want to see your new boyfriend ....ok. But I honestly think you need to live on YOUR OWN, so you can figure out what YOU WANT, not doing what you think others want. Living for someone else is a disaster in the making. Until you learn this you are bound to pinball bounce from one bad relationship to the next.

    No, other person can make you happy. Find it within yourself to be happy on your own, then you will be able to form a healthy, give / take relationship with someone you would like to share your life with.

    Good luck.

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