Joelbear- I know what you mean. Sometimes it can just hurt so bad, and there's not a thing I can say that could stop that pain or else I'd say it. But you're on the right track- seeing a doctor, getting therapy, taking the meds- these are all positive steps you can take to help yourself. I was on meds for a while, and I was flabbergasted by how well they worked. I'd actually forgotten what happiness felt like, but the pills helped me to get it back. Please, give them time to work, and be good to yourself- long hot baths, chocolate milkshakes, playing the Beatles really loud in your car- whatever little things help you to feel good, do them. You're going to be all right; we're all rooting for you, and I'll be sure to say a special prayer for you tonight.