there is an unreachable part of myself that is condemned as evil.
i have always known it existed and i have always tried to do as much good as i could
to offset it, but in the end it has won, it cannot be vanquished.
Joel, everyone has evil in them just as everyone has good . Unreachable ? no , only if you let it. Who said what you do or think is evil ? You control your life 'YOU " and you need to think or yourself worthy just as everyone is . You have a right to be alive and live to be happy but you have to do it for yourself because no can take you by the hand and do it for you .
Joel , yourself estem is very low so build it up . Do something that you enjoy and let life come to you and tell yourself " I am worth it and have a right to be happy and damn it i am going to get it".
You are never alone