Why just because i am dfed (march) can my family and all the friends ive ever known tell me i am dead to them?
why have i missed two important family weddings and been told i ruined them coz everyone was upset?
why if ihave tried to please them and tried once to get reinstated and now finally felt i have to be true to myself have i caused such pain all over again?
i finally told my dad i wanted my boyfriend who has stuck by me thru so much, and i even said wed marry and then id get reinstated and he said he wouldnt want to have anythin to do with a boy who has wrecked my marriage (he didnt it was pretty dead anyway!)
i told them jesus would not be this cruel, and my dad just trys to help me by printing out imfo about any questions i have, my dad has found out he has two tumours and is going in hospital in january, i really dont want to cause him any pain but i have stopped going to the meetings which hurts cause im ruining my months of trying for reinstatement,
im sorry to go on AGAIN but ive just come off the phone and after making all my stands to my dad my mum just told me how the only thing i can do is go to all the meetings its 'the ONLY way to return to jehovah' why do they not listen to what i say?
why if i say thats it, the bf is living with me would i have to lose them (and they veiw it as achoice between him and them!)
why do i bascally have two choices 1 to be with the bf and destroy them and have all contact cut off when my dads ill? and 2 go to all the meetings lose the bf but have the love of my family again
AND WHY DO THEY SAY I HAVE NO CHOICE??
(sorry guys i just needed to let off steam!)