Gary, I'm sorry you had to endure yet another interrogation. The pressure you are feeling right now must unbearable!
I'm sorry you had to deal with a guilt-fest. I remember how well that worked on me. When all else fails pull out the guilt tools.
Let's clarify something: YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR FAMILY AND YOURS ALONE. YOUR FAMILY COMES FIRST.
Step away from JW teaches specifically and look at the history of cults, what do they use to control their members? They claim members need to sacrafice all for a higher power/deity. They brainwash through coercision. They make members think that they should be willing to give everything over to this greater good.
Reality check: YOUR FAMILY COMES FIRST!
From what you are saying, I see that you are intimidated by them and that you don't want to "rock the boat." But, where does it stop? It is time to draw a clear line in the sand in front of your family. They are OFF-LIMITS!
To have the adacity to say they will bring back the CO is just plain bullying. You can not stand for this. You need to let them know NOW that you have made up your mind on the matter and that a meeting with the CO won't be necessary. You won't be attending it and that is the final say on the matter.
Please know we are here to support you. Many of us have been exactly where you are now. We have faced the same emotions you are experiencing. We know how torn you feel right now. That is the brain-sucking monster slowly be ripped away from you. It is truly amazing how clear you can see when all the crap is wiped away and you can think for yourself. You've already started on that path according to your last message. I had emailed you about intuition. To use it, you must first listen and feel for it. It is there, you just need to have the courage to follow its path.
Good luck my friend!