Lotus,
You can talk to me, because I'm neither DF'd nor DA'd. But you're not going to like what you hear.
I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but you are representing yourself as being a member of the "annointed," the "faithful and discreet slave" of a cult.
I was a slave of the JWs at one time. The JWs encouraged my parents to coerce me into performing marketing services on behalf of the WTS (i.e. "going out in service"), without compensation. I was also forced to endure thousands of hours of ignorant bibble babble spewed from a platform dominated by idiots. But that wasn't enough. I was also denied any opportunity to participate in school sports and activities, denied normal family relationships with my extended family, denied the enjoyment of holidays, and robbed of my culture by parents who zealously adhered to the message of your cult.
After 14 years of this torture, I stopped attending, and opted instead to suffer the consequences of disobeying my parent's commands. That was 22 years ago, and my only regret is that I wasn't able to do it sooner.
If you suddenly believe you are of the "annointed class," may I respectfully suggest that you seek counseling, as such a belief is really a delusion. I hope that you will also attain mental freedom some day. Good luck to you.