Posts by Tameria2001

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Your earliest doubt?

by Apognophos in

this might be an unfair question for those who have been out of the organization for decades, but i'm wondering if any of you remember your earliest doubt -- maybe something odd that occurred to you as a kid (if you were a jw then).

please try to limit to two doubts at the most :-).

i think my first "doubt" was simply realizing that at the time of the flood, every animal that wasn't in the ark died (well, besides the fish, supposedly).

Tameria2001

My earliest doubt was when I was a teen, I only wished I had paid closer attention to it. Around 1984 to 1986, I attened the Durant, Okahoma congeration. I was treated like I had something that no one else wanted to catch. The witnesses who belonged to that congeration, treated me like an outsider. I was in high school at the time, and had no friends either in school or in the congeration. I was treated so bad that I actually tried, and nearly succeded in commiting sucide. My own mother had her own problems, with dealing with cancer as well at that time. I was not yet baptized.

Then history repeated itself when I was just married to my husband. I moved to where he was living, and that congeration is Carthage, Missouri. Shorty after I was married, the C.O. and his wife (who was a total bitch) came for their visit. I had briefly met this woman at another congeration, but she did not know that I had just gotten married. Instead of saying what ever, she walked up to me and rudely asked me, "What are you doing here?" Then she went on to say, "You need to quit looking for a single brother and just go back to were you came from." It was at that time my husband heard what was going on, and it pissed him off, and he yelled at her and told her to back the HELL OFF, that is my wife you are speaking to. Yes he actually said those exact words.

While I was attending that congeration I was again treated like an outsider, someone to be avoided.

It was at that point those doubts started to make me think about those people and that religion. They say we are a brotherhood, and talk about love among the brothers.

The final straw was when that same "love" was shown to my son, that was when I decided to research them.

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So, you left the Watchtower.................but.........did it leave you?

by Terry in

if you grow up speaking english and you move to mexico you don't automatically speak spanish, know customs, understand currency, possess skills.

for self-support or have any special insight into latino mindset.. .

why would you expect leaving jehovah's witnesses would leave you any less ill-equipped to navigate the real world?.

Tameria2001

What you said is very true. Even though I left the Watchtower, know that it is a evil cult. It is nothing more than a publishing company who has free labor to do it's bidding, and I hate it with every fiber of my being. I grew up in that cult, and I also had a very abusive father, he was never a JW, but the abuse started up when mother became a JW. I grew up nearly every day being told that the end was near, and looking forward to it. It was not because of all the people that would have been killed, but the thought of being reunited with my sister who was murdered.

Even after leaving, there are still things that hang on, even though I don't want it to. I don't know if I will ever be really free of everthing that was drilled into my head, but it is something that I'm always working on.

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Is time running out for the Watchtower ? or has it already passed its used by date

by smiddy in

judging by the titles/themes of the talks , dramas ,new releases ,tracts,brochures , etc,.i dont think their was anything that would enthuse any witness to renewed activity.on the contrary i think it would demoralize you .their was nothing their to inspire a new convert let alone one who has been in for decades to keep on in service to this organization.

for arguments sake ,i was baptised in 1961 if i was still in , at this convention ,i would be asking ,when is the great tribulatin to begin?

who is the king of the north ?

Tameria2001

I just had an idea. Why don't the governement remove their tax free status, and charge them for all the volunteer hours that people are putting in? They are already taxing the heck out of us anyhow.

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What does your screen name/avatar mean and what does it stand for

by BU2B in

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friends

and why did you choose it?

if you have a avatar, what is it and why did you pick it?.

ok ill start.

Tameria2001

My screen name is another version of my birth name, and the number after it, is the year I became free from the Watchtower.

My avatar called a Sim, from a game called The Sims 3. She is one whom I created from a photo of myself when I was in my early 20's, although my hair was never quite that light. With the back ground you can see that it is night, but the sun is coming up, it is to represent the light that is exposing the Watchtowers lies, and darkness.

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WT SHUNNING POLICY: What has it done, or could it do to you?

by flipper in

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hi y'all, this is mrs. flipper.

please share your experiences with this, or possible consequences of being outed.. this recent controversy and resulting arguments all stem from people being outed - possibly losing friends and family because most jw's will blindly follow the watchtower's rules to shun them.. among people i know and experiences read here, the grief and loss caused by this is terrible, and maybe now is a good time to put up some experiences here, and put the focus on the worst villians of all - wt policymakers..

Tameria2001

The relatives that I have that are still in the JWs, are in short crazy nut jobs, and I'm pretty sure it was that cult that made them that way. After I got through the pain of loosing them, I am finding myself better off without them. To me, they no longer exist, in short they are already dead to me. Even if they ever left, I know that I would never welcome them into my home or even have any dealings with any of them. Even though they are JWs, they are liars, theives, and my own mother stood by and allowed my father (he was never a JW) to abuse me mentally, phyiscally, and sexually. My JW relatives are very toxic people, and I am happy to be rid of those wicked people.

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What Do You Typically Read For News On The Internet or On TV?

by minimus in

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i rarely watch fox news.

but i do read the drudge report every day.

on drudge, there are tons of newspaper links which i typically read from..

Tameria2001

I don't even waste my time watching news on the TV. I might on occasion watch my local news, just to keep up with what is going on in my area. I usually get my news from the internet, and then before even believing it, I will double check to make sure that too is not something false as well. I forget which person it was that worked for CNN, she said all CNN is, is the mouthpiece to the government.

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Were You Ever Interrogated By The Elders?

by minimus in

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some elders enjoy giving the business to the lowly flock thru intimidation.

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some love to ask you to enter with them into the "backroom".. of course, there were many that never had run-ins with the shepherds because they were under the radar.. did you ever get interrogatted by the elders and if so, how did it go??

Tameria2001

Once. My husband cheated on me with a white trailor trash hoochy mama. Long story short, I was pregnant with my second child, and they questioned me about stuff that I did not even witness. I told them, that if this hormonal pregnant woman had see that, there would be no need for a judial meeting, because I would have killed her, and made my husband wished he was some place else.....

Now for the real truth at what had happened. Yes, my husband did cheat on me, and yes I was called in for a judial meeting, I'm guessing as a witness. When they started asking me about what he did, I told them that I was not there to see what had happened, only what my husband told me. Then I broke down crying. They asked me if I was going to leave my husband over this, and I told them, I did not know, what I was going to do. After that, it was my husband's time to go see the elders, and they let me go home. My husband, being the son of an elder knew how to play the game, and he managed to only be put on private reproof.

If any one is wondering the outcome, my husband truly felt horrible about what he done. Not because he broke the rules, it was because he broke my heart, and my trust in him. The next seven years were really tough, but we did manage to survive that bump in the road, and he has never cheated on me again after that. We are getting ready to have our 20th wedding aniversary this September, and he did eventually regained my trust, but it did take a long time.

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What will the JW religion be like in 2015?

by JimmyPage in

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over 100 years into the reign of christ and six more years of damage from the internet.

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what do you envision?.

Tameria2001

It will be the same old thing. There is a saying, "There is nothing new under the sun." Well there is nothing new in that damed cult. They sucker in new people, and others will wise up and get out, being totally robbed of their loved ones who choose to belive the cult's lies.

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Do You Fear Death?

by Cold Steel in

whether you're a former jw, or active jw, or some other religion, or atheist, what do you say?

do you fear death and, whether yes, no, or i don't know, why?

have changed religious views changed your view of death?

Tameria2001

I feel the same way as what 2+2=5 said. I grew up in that cult as a kid, being told the same thing. If I had only known that was a lie, then I would have taken better care of my health and body when I was younger. I am just so happy that I did not pass that lie on to my own children, and as a result they don't do some of the things that I did when I was their age.

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Do You Fear Death?

by Cold Steel in

whether you're a former jw, or active jw, or some other religion, or atheist, what do you say?

do you fear death and, whether yes, no, or i don't know, why?

have changed religious views changed your view of death?

Tameria2001

I don't fear death, I have already faced it several times in the past and survived. My only hope is that when I do go, that first my children are already grown and on their own, and second, I don't get clobbered, that would involve a whole lot of pain. lol Me and pain don't get along very well.