Backformore...hello, ...while I understand babyfever,
I think you may be in denial of your reality.
Facts are hard to accept sometimes, especially when
it points to a loss of youth. It might not be a case of
losing out on another child!
A couple of facts that you have given us, is that
you do have two lovely healthy children already and.....
"I have been diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, celiac disease, and renal failure. My wife had breast cancer at 30"
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Your decision of course........... only my 2 cents!
clarity