I did the new study very recently (I started late 07 and cancelled my study early this year), I did the "what does the bible really teach?" book and had started another before I left- I was very clear with the lady I was studing with that I was not ready for baptisim and if I was going to be... I wanted to do things the right way and for the right reasons... It was my honest search and study that lead me to what I believe now (wont go into that- each to his/her own).
I was not rushed (I wouldn't allow that), I dont respond well to directions and I question authority, I trust my gut instincts (they have saved my life and the lives of my children before). So it's not surprising to me now, (now that I know more about the WTBTS and how they opperate), that I was just not a 'follower'..... I cant be taught, I learn by teaching myself.... I taught myself how to cook, how to drive a car, how to play the guitar, how to sew, Im a huge DIY advocate....
That is why they could only manage one shepparding call after I stopped my study- and I asked them this question before they left... how do you tell a friend that they were raised in a cult and all they think they know is a lie???