I've often come around to the same idea, when thinking about the question of Athiesm vs Agnosticism vs some form of Theistic belief.
We need to ask ourselves:
Are we asking what is best? or are we asking what is TRUE? There is no guarantee that Truth will make you happy, guide you in your life decisions, cause you to be surrounded by a loving community or ANYTHING else.
I am mostly interested in truth. If we are asking what is TRUE, I have the one true religion. Everyone be an Agnostic and come look for what insight can be scraped together with me. We are the only mindset which for sure is not factually incorrect in our religious views. I don't think of myself as much different than an "Athiest", but there is a subtle difference in my perspective that I think is important. The "QUESTION" is extremely real, Athiests tend to focus on how religious people are deluded (as they obviously are). There is more to it than that, the question is real, it is the answers that are fake. This leaves the question of what is the "truth". I really do not think "there is no god" is a very satisfying conclusion to the question any more than "I'm a moron that believes everything I'm told about god, and it works as long as I don't think". To recognize the immensity of the predicament we mortals find ourselves in is the greatest intellectual pleasure I've ever experienced. Knowing how little you know about what you are is perhaps the deepest spiritual awakening I can imagine.
If you're asking what is BEST, well that's much more complicated. Certainly Athiestic perspective unleashed against the abuses of religion is extremely useful. Athiesm is a nice dressing down of people who otherwise would be dangerous. Athiests are the whistleblowers on religion. Religion/belief also has the various social and personal benefits that everyone is aware of.
I dont' think providence comes from being deluded, or being disillusioned or any balance therebetween. There is something else to find. Before I die, I'll find it and write a book about it.
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