Being raised a witness there were times I would fantasize about what life would be like if we had never been witnesses. When the Sears catalog would come in the mail I would go thriugh it and pick out the Christmas tree we would have and the presents I would receive and give. Things like these would pop into my brain every now and then, but I would never think of leaving. I always doubted certain things, but I pushed them away and waited on Jehovah. Then I found out about the UN issue and all my doubts hit me in the face. I looked into issues that had bothered me and when I looked at it all toghther I realized I could not stand by the WT anymore. So today I'm in the process of fading. I hope to escape with the least amount of damage possible.
becca1
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Did you ever think you'd stop being one of Jehovah's Witnesses?
by sandy ini'm sure this question has been asked before .
i've come a long way in my thinking.
a very long way!
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my very personal history!
by weary inmy history: i grew up as one of jw's.
parents are still.
both brothers have been df'd.
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becca1
Welcome! You are not alone. Those of us raised in the truth have a distorted way of viewing life. The standards we were made to uphold were so strict few of us could live up to them. That brings with it a constant cycle of self defeat. It looks like you've reached the point of finally breaking that cycle. Go get some qualified help with your drinking problems and stick around here for support. It's never too late to start over. I'm 47 and just started down this road in June. It's not easy but it's better than the alternative of staying stuck in a destructive cycle.
Take care...
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My heart hurt today at all the wasted years in the ORG.
by purplesofa init was on the history of the morman religion.
one of the docs i work for is morman.
i always try to find something to chitchat with the docs with, so i asked him about his religion.
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Dear Purps: I'm really sorry you are having a bad day. I appreciate how cherry and uplifting you usually seem. I have days like yours too. What we have lived through as witnesses is so intense and life consuming that it can not be left behind easily. After 47 years I doubt I'll ever be trully "out".My life was molded by the the WT. I would need to suffer total amnesia to not be influenced. I too am sorry for the things I denied my children. Today one is grown and the youngest 17, so ther is no use crying over spilled milk. I just try each day to do and say things that prove my unconditional love for them (something I feel the WT keeps parents from having), and to give my 17 year old the freedom to become the person he trully is.
I hope tomorow is a better day...
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when HallMark writers have a bad Day
by purplesofa inever wondered what happens when hallmark writers are having a bad day........ .
//////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// my tire was thumping.
i thought it was flat .
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cute
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Finally got the Tract
by liquidsky in>>she was by herself which i thought was kind of strange.
don't they have to go in groups of 2?.
during these hit-n-run tract campaigns they often go to doors by themselves.
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Oh, that was me! I didn't have time to meet the group for FS. Not!
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College...(don't tell the elders)
by SB inhey all, i'm new to the board, and happy to have found it.
i'm going to college for the first time (i'm 25 yrs old).
does anyone have any advice on how to handle the challenge?
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becca1
Welcome! I'm glad you went back to school. You won't find it any harder than high school. Keep on top of your assignments and don't get behind. It is not the "Sodom and Gomorrah" you've been warned of. There are all types of people just like anywhere else. Choose friends that share your interests and morals. And don't forget to have fun!
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Hypocrisy on holidays, etc.
by Rebirth ini was just thinking about how hypocritical it is for jw's to declare things like birthdays, christmas, easter, thanksgiving, etc.
as defiled because of their roots.
their roots, their beginning, in the days of russell, are the things that they find disgusting today (the cross, birthdays, blood, etc.).
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Well said onthewayout.
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In the beginning ... was the Watchtower Society
by The wanderer in<!-- .style1 {font-family: arial, sans-serif} .style2 {font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; } .style3 {font-size: 14px} .style4 {font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; font-style: italic; } .style5 {font-family: arial, sans-serif; color: #660066; } --> in the beginning ... was the watchtower society after last night's thread concerning whether or not individuals on.
this discussion board hated jehovah's witnesses, it was found.
that the vast majority did not.. .
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I think Russell was a kookie guy with good intentions. He trully wanted to learn and teach Bible truth. I don't think he intended for the Society as we know it to ever come to be. Rutherford took it to whole other level and created a religion with all the bells and whistles. I am not defending present day Rusellites, I just think Russell was sincere in his efforts.
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going for a colonoscopy(sp) on friday
by orbison11 inyes, but i hear thursday will be the bad day, when i do the meds and have to sit 3 feet from the toilet for 24 hours,,oyy vay.
any here been thru this wonderful experience?.
orb.
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Yes the cleaning out processes is the yucky part. The procedure is no big deal. I hope everything is OK with you.
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Breaking it to my grandparents
by AirDuster inso i've been deciding for the past year or so whether or not i want to stay in this religion, and i have decided that i do not.
i plan on telling my grandparents (whom i live with) this very soon, possibly tomorrow.
of course i can't be just like "i don't want to be a jehovah's witness anymore", but rather "i don't believe in this anymore, and here are the reasons why".
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Hi: Are you baptized? If so, will your grandparents turn you in to the elders? This could leave you out in the cold in more ways then one. If you do want to go ahead and tell them how you feel, keep to one of two topics and avoid getting confentational. The UN issue might be a good one because you can get all the info you need form the UN's site and the WT publications. The blood issue could be addressed using the Nov. KM insert on fractions and showing how it does not make any sense.
Whatever you do, consider the consequences first.
Take care...