Well it has been a long hard road i can vouch for you there. We made one big mistake but looking back and saying i wish i had or hadnt wont change anything. I am really glad you finally found what makes you happy. That is all i ever wanted for you.
I never really went to read all your story till tonight........ Wish i had picked a different time to read it now because its catching me on a down and there are a few things you have written that dont sit well with me for now. Maybe after I think about it for a while I will be ok.... who knows....you know me i will think it over and be fine.
The next thing will be for you to read my side of our life I have written it over and over and never posted it I thought it was because I didnt want you to be hurt by it but I know its becuase Im not ready yet. There are things in my mind that arent ok because of being raised a JW. I have to heal from that first im told and then I will be ok. For now I just keep all my time busy never give myself a free minute because then I think about things (like im doing now). It leaves the girls out of my life more then ever and I really hate that and feel guilty about it. I come home after 11pm most nights having seen them only 10 mins or so in the morning and just stand in the bedroom between each of the beds looking at how much they have grown and how beautiful they are. They keep me going. I will make sure they dont have to work like this a day in thier lives. For now I have to keep going and finish school so that they have a better future then this.
Our girls will be fine. I have always discussed with them why you were working so much even though I knew you were not ok and needed to be gone for some other reason. The excuse was always because you loved them. So there are no worries they love you more then you will ever know.
As for you and your life. Good Luck. I hope life treats you much better from here on out.