A few thoughts...
...Because hypocrasy is denounced harshly here, it is hard to imagine we might be hypocrites ourselves. But it seems to me that we are often hypcrites to our feelings--and that can be okay. For example, if you abandoned your spouse of 20 years and ran off with a lover, you would be a hypocrite to your vows, although acting true to your feelings. If you stayed faithful you would feel like a terrible hypocrite to your feelings, but you would not be a hypocrite to your word.
...I think you should find a way to fade. Stop being a leader. If you are active as a MS... and want to get out of it... why not do like your predecessor and 'confess' to something (or many things) which you know would have you removed? Or, make something up to confess if you don't like the thought of sharing anything. Slowly get more sporadic in doing field service. Get considered 'spiritually weak'. Grow a beard. You will lose the polish of appearing exemplary, and you will catch a lot of flak, but I'll bet your dissonance will abate a bit.
...Jesus told a parable about a shrewd manager who knew he'd get fired. Until that actually happened, he made the most of his situation and made some friends with his employers creditors so that he would not be on the street at the end. So, you can apply this to yourself: until you leave, be shrewd in every way...
bebu