Reminders of an abuser

by Lady Lee 58 Replies latest watchtower child-abuse

  • Lady Lee
    Lady Lee

    Reminders of an abuser

    Forty years later

    You reach out from the grave

    to remind me of your crimes

    My body wears the scars again

    of diseases from my past

    A doctor's exam reveals

    Latent infections reborn

    To cause me pain

    Words like surgery, biopsy and cancer

    Spill off her tongue

    Like fists pounding in my gut

    I feel relief that she listens

    But am blocked from my pain

    Other feelings numbed so

    I can make it home

    Where I am safe.

    Anger and rage that still

    he infects me with his evil acts

    waits until I am ready to feel

    Too numb to ask the questions

    I need to ask like

    If it’s cancer what then?

    Or can it be treated?

    Will I be OK?

    A few days later

    I talk to a friend

    And the tears begin to flow

    A childhood lost

    Memories rekindled

    More pain to endure

    And knowing it won’t end

    A legacy of the past

    We will treat it now

    And wait to see

    What the biopsy shows

    And if I’m safe

    I’ll have to wait

    To do it all again

    Because it will never go away

    Until I die

    He’s dead and gone but still

    He reaches out to touch

    Infect, destroy

    Traces of the past

    Won’t fully go away

    But still I know

    I fight for life

    Until this journey’s end

  • jgnat

    I can offer no more words. I read your poem, and I sit and listen.

    Yes, I can do that at least.


  • Lady Lee
    Lady Lee

    Can I hold your hand as we sit here together?

  • jgnat


  • Scully

    Wish you were still here Lee so I could give you another real hug.

    (((((((((((((( Lee )))))))))))

    Love, Scully

  • jst2laws


    In view of the pain of the past can you accept the sympathy of a caring man? This subject tears me apart. Your peom makes me look intently at the pieces of life, mine, yours and everyone else.

    Life is precious, and what we have of it now is .... what we have now.

    I really hope you are doing OK.


  • Lady Lee
    Lady Lee

    Thanks Scully


    Compassion and caring is always welcome. Fortunately I do not equate all men with the likes of my abusers.

    I will be OK - just need a little "woe is me time" and time to cry and get angry and before I keep on fighting

  • Lady Lee
    Lady Lee

    Thanks sphere

  • cat1759

    Until the journey's end!

    Your words are so passionate.

    Sorry to hear this. Warm hearted blessings to you.

    May things go well.


    Keep on fighting.


  • oldcrowwoman


    Pull up a chair and have a with me. I will serve you of soup to comfort the soul!!


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