You're sitaution reminds me a lot of Larc's wife, Zazu. She's a remarkable woman with a slightly off-center sense of humor. If you're not emailing with her - please do. She's fun to be around, but knows her situation is still serious, but improving, after her stroke.
Mommie Dark also has major problems, and freely speaks about them. We don't get along, but other people seem to like her a lot. Perhaps The Clash of Weird Women, eh? And I am joking, if someone points this out to her. (she doesn't like me....yet another one!) But she's a remarkable woman in many ways.
In other words, there are others here (or there) who have similiar problems. Perhaps a chat group could form?
(giggle) DID people tried that.....but we think all the others are weird. (and NOW I am joking!)
I haven't looked up the other thread I brought up yesterday (memory) - did you find it? Did you watch Antwon Fisher (or Fischer)? I think you'd like it.
Btw, have you seen the movie Momemto (can rent it)? We spent lot of time on it in psych class. Also the books The Alienist and The Angel of Darkness (Caleb Cabb). My psych prof. recommended them - about the first psychologists and serial killers. Novels - but really good. I read them several years ago.
Love - waiting