Growing up a gay Jehovah's Witness (My Life Story)

by m0nk3y 263 Replies latest jw experiences

  • Dansk
    Dansk
    After I had got better I had began to realise that life was very different than Jehovah’s Witnesses say it is. I started learning a new way of life and started healing myself. I think though I will continue to heal myself for a very long time from now. I guess me writing this is all part of the healing process.

    Congratulations, Josh. It takes courage to do what you have done and to be so open. Life is, very much indeed, so different to what the JWs would have us believe - and to be able to share that life with someone we truly love and who truly loves us is especially gratifying (perhaps even optimal?).

    My younger daughter recently came out and, far from being shocked, I thought about how difficult and at times painful it must have been for her to hide her sexuality. She told me she really tried to serve Jehovah because she thought it was wrong. Stephanie was also concerned about us, her parents, thinking we would kick her out of the house. Truth is, we love her and only want for her happiness so are supportive. Things are so much better now everything is out in the open.

    I believe you have helped many people here with your story, Josh. That counts for a tremendous amount.

    Good life to you,

    Ian

  • bubble
    bubble

    (((((Josh))))))

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. I find homophobia abhorrant and that is one of the main reasons I know that the JW's have it all wrong.

    You are what you are and people should love and respect you no matter what your sexuality.

  • BFD
    BFD

    Wow, cloudblue. Thnaks for sharing your story and Welcome to the board. I too feel that salvation is beyond my grasp because of the way god created me. It's quite a conundrum if you accept the bible as inspired word of god.

    Thankfully, I am coming to the realization it is just a book of stories and man created this god in his own image. There are so many other ways to feel connected without the judgmental dogma of christianity.

    Welcome.

    BFD

    (((Josh)))

  • mouthy
    mouthy

    Well I ONLY just read your story!!!! & How wicked is the WT for making you feel like you did !!!! Hey but I was thrilled to find your FREE from that thinking NOW My dear friend BFD said below ...But darling BFD I am a Christian ( not a very good one) But Christian I am .... True Christians are NOT dogmatic they let GOD do the judging. I have MANY gays in my support group I love them they love me, They talk about being gay quite freely..... One just came out of the closet, some have been out quite a while ,,, I think our sexuual lives is OUR buisness ...We can talk about our preferances or we dont have to if we dont care too. Welcome MONKEY!!!!! ( I for got the aviator rest ...old age...) Shall I send BFD to his room????? saying that below

    judgmental dogma of christianity.<<<<<

  • darkuncle29
    darkuncle29

    This was a good ol' thread. I love how so many new people posted, many only here.

    M0nk3y, are you still around? How was your wedding? What are you doing these days? Do you still bring Mrs. Kitty out once in a while?

    Dansk: That's cool your duaghter is out of the org, and that your family was so supportive of her. So that means you have one left in right?

  • Happy Harvester
    Happy Harvester

    Hi cloudblue and welcome. I'm a little confused. Are you josh or cloudblue? Anyway, welcome and congratulations to everybody who's out. It's a good thing. Sorry you're feeling so conflicted about it, though. I hope things improve for you.

  • Sarah Smiles
    Sarah Smiles
    One brother actually asked me “If you were to look at pornographic material of a girl would it arouse me?” Of course I said no .. and then he asked the same thing about seeing a man the same way and I said yes it would arouse me. He looked completely disgusted. This kind of thing seemed the theme of their visits.

    Sorry for what the elder put you thru! This elder should step down because he was way off his rocker!

    For one thing According to the WTBTS Fornication is equal sin with Homosexuality! So tell me What was this elder talking about? He was talking about his own problems which does not have anything to do with your health issues, nervous break down! They do not allow pornography so why ask you such stupid crap! See when someone needs prayers and understanding this is what people get, a crazy heartless elder thrown in the group!

    I hope you are happy now and healthy! It's a tough one and I'am sorry for what you had to go thru!

    It is better to be honest than live a life as a lie! Keep up the good work with honesty! Choose to be honest. That elder had his own agenda, he is choosing a life of a lie because of his pornography and not admitting it until now! Some think viewing pornography is fonication or adultery and is grounds for divorce.

    You sound like a very forgiving person! Nice to see that!

  • BabaYaga
    BabaYaga

    I just saw this thread, so I'm happy for the bump... m0nk3y Josh thanks so much for sharing your story, and CloudBlue... hello and welcome.

    Cloudblue are you posting in Firefox? If so, to keep your paragraphs, uncheck the "Check here to use HTML formatting" box and CHECK the "Automatic Cr/Lf" box... (see? the ones at the bottom of the comment field, just above the "submit Post" button...)

    Cheers to you
    Baba

  • cloudblue
    cloudblue

    OOO thanks baba yaga. I am using firefox, so hopefully that will help. I actually know a little about the baba yaga myth/story. It's a neat Russian Witch that dwells in a house on chicken feet. I think she's usually bad, but I've seen a couple references where she helped people, but mainly people feared her.

    re: am I Josh? Nopers. I'm Cloudblue. I'm Aaron, living in Cali. Just had my own story to tell, since alot of what Josh said resonated with me and my own experience.

    I remember trying this exercise on my Mom and an elder. I said,"Ok, just try for a minute to imagine if tomorrow new understanding of the Bible showed that you couldn't like the opposite sex anymore, but you had to have attraction to/love/marry the same sex." I would always get blank stares and a mental brick wall, and an answer like,"Jehovah doesn't command that." I would then explain,"I'm just trying to illustrate how hard of a thing it is, that you're asking me to do. You are unable to even fathom trying to be attracted to the same sex, and it's just as hard for me to try to be attracted to the opposite sex."

  • LeslieV
    LeslieV

    Welcome Cloudblue...we are sure glad you are with us.

    Leslie

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