tears fill my eyes at just the idea of my family accepting me again. but you know what? i don't know what on earth i would discuss with them even if they did speak to me now, i'm so different. i am no longer the person they turned away from seven years ago.
does that mean i love them any less? no. if i did, i wouldn't be crying right now, would i?
i just told my husband yesterday, that being df'd is like a life sentence without the chance of parole. there is no statute of limitations on shunning. i think a person should be judged on the daily content of their life, of what they do with themselves and what they give to others, instead of whether or not their butt warms the seat in a kingdom hall three times a week and a van of 'ministers' once a week.
i'd welcome them back into my life, because i never turned away from them, i never stopped loving them. life is too short, from my perspective, to hold grudges.
yes, i love them. thats why it still hurts.
but it won't ever happen. if they did that, they wouldn't be able to keep people in the borg, and they won't ever let go of their control.
love to all my old friends here, who knew/know me as esmeralda. lost the old account info and all and just started over.