Nina, Dr. Phil would tear the WT a new ,,,,,,,,you know what. I would do anything to make them at least be exposed for the cold hearted evil that the WT truly is.
I would have done anything to know what I do now when my mom did what she did. I wasnt able to be mad at anyone, except myself, and I know now that I wasnt to blame. I am not saying the WT, or the local elders were totally to blame but then again I do strongly believe that they are also bloodguilty.
I didnt get peace until I realized the how abused she was by being a witness. Everything you said,Nina is almost exactly what happened to my mom, the whole not caring and kicking someone when they are down story. I tell you now, that when I get a chance to speak up , I will not hold back anymore on speaking my mind , and what I think of the "loving brothers, and Jehovah's wonderful organization", just saying those words make me want to puke.
I am glad Nina you are going thru the feelings of anger , even if it is painful, it will help you to heal, I dont know if you ever truly heal over suicide, I know I havent, but you have to make the person who was so distraught's memory live on. I know I have shared my story with many, and even if my mom is long gone, she still lives in maybe helping someone to not give up. She has me,more times than I can say. I think she is breathing a sigh of relief now that I am out, maybe that is why I feel more peace now. Time does heal wounds, that is true , they say,,,,,,,,but I say,,,,,,, it still leaves an painful scar.
Nina, you are so strong and brave, and I tell you what , if you ever need someone to stand by you to tell your story or others to tell theirs, you know I would love to help out. Maybe there will not only be Silent Lamb marches, but also marches for these other kinds of silent lambs, like your dad and my mom. I hope they are somewhere together , I really hope there is a heaven, and they are comforted by the fact that we are going to make it,,,,,,we are strong, and we are not going to let their memories die, or let their voices not be heard.
Please keep me informed if any of the cold hearted bastards try to contact you, I would love to know what they will say....... I am sure it will be anything to divert the blame from themselves, I wonder if they will even try.
Regardless, you have a voice and there are many more who need to know about how the JW's really treat their so called own. It is nothing short of emotional blackmail and abuse.
All my love dear Nina, and I know your Dad is sooooooo proud of you. I am too, you are tryly an inspiration.