Death is not easy to accept. I hope you can cope with it and go on with your life. My wife's sister lost her husband a couple of years ago and pulled up in the drive way valentines day. She didn't come in, so my wife went out to check on her. She was playing a song and looking at a picture of him and crying. I hate death and the pain it causes, but we all must live with it. I hope you can remember the good times and not let it ruin your life. There is not much I can do except say I love you and hope life gets better.
Ken P.