hi jess,
I feel I have to say something, but I can't think of what I could possible say. I was abused as a kid but not sexually and not by j.w's
I do not claim to understand what you have been through or to know how you feel. As I read your story, I could not hold back the tears, at one point I thought I would be physically sick. How could your own family do this to you?! you said all this was a long time ago but it is clear that you still suffer deeply.
I just want to thank you for the tremenous courage you showed in telling this story. you truly are an amazing woman. what I find so scarry is the fact that so many people have been through such herendas expireances. I have not visited the silent lambs site because I am a coward. I am afraid of the truth of what an awfull world we live in . the fact that such things go on in what for the last 16 years i thought of as"the truth" terrifies me. You put me to great shame. If you, and people like you can find the strength, not only to tell your story, but more amazingly live through that, then the least I can do is take the time to read them.
Your strength is an insperation! thank you again and good luck with the therapy. if ever anyone desirves to find peace it is you!
On a more humorous note; I was so engrosed in this that I did not notice that my 2 year old son who is right here in the room with me, had got a gold permanant marker pen and gone around drawing on everything incuding a brand new leather sofa he has probably done hunderds of £ of damage still all I could do was pick him up and give him a big hug! after reading yor account it puts things in perspective. lots of love, pudd xxx