I placed thumbs down on you Marvin and Outlaw. You are speaking of what you know not. I almost lost my son due to this very issue when he was diagnosed with Leukemia. I died a lot that day. It happened so quickly.Thank goodness for the courts. I often felt after I had time to think about it and asked myself if we were any different than those that offered their children to Molech and voiced that to close family and friends. Much to their dismay and mine. I thought every night how I would take my own life after my children were old enough to care for themselves.
This was the catalyst that broke my wife and my dissonance. It took another year or so for it to truly take affect. We were true believers. Third generation. Never doubted that this was the truth and we were doing what was right. We have to live with the guilt of that every day. If I knew then even a tenth of what I now know there is no way I would have placed my family in that situation. One key example is the flip on the organ transplant issue. Which I was not aware of until I started researching.
Having a child was not easy for us either. The doctors told us we would never have children naturally. My wife set about proving them wrong and did. Every one referred to our son as the miracle baby. We love him dearly and cried with joy the day we found out he was on the way, the day he was born, and many others since then.
I do not nor will I ever wish something like childhood cancer on my worst enemy. Being a JW makes this type of Hell the hottest of hells. If I had found TTATT after this and lost my son my vengeance would know no bounds for others perpetrating this belief system and for myself.
Please remember what its like to have been a true believer. Maybe you never were and it was always clear to you what this was. It wasn't for many of us out and many still in. I have to live with myself for as long as I breathe and try to be the best father and husband that I can. Having you condemn me and others like me for it does not help.