Thanks to everyone responding! Yes I am very overwhelmed with it all. I have been on jw facts.com and it is incredibly overwhelming. I don't know where to begin or end.
My husband doesn't care what people think, never has, so he feels he trusts in Jehovah and no one else. He doesn't mind we look spiritually weak or irresponsible plus having so many children (which you know in the KH with weak attendance assume our children are doomed at Armageddon). He believes Jehovah is the only one to judge so why waste time with people And their opinions. I wish I had that confidence. I care what people think and JWs always think the worst.
who doesn't want friends? Or to fit in? We both feel horrible when we leave meeting, unworthy, beat down, wasted our time, and unappreciated. Really, is this how we should feel? From the platform they say the same company line, "we are the happiest people". Everyone nods in agreement knowing it's a lie.
I find the idea uncomfortable of not raising my kids in a 'church' since that is the only thing I know from my childhood. Anyone have advice, experience? I have let him know all the things I don't like about our faith, and he is open and listens. He says there is no reason to rush thinga, our children are still young. I would like to call myself a halfer, half in, half out, half believe, half don't believe. Or, just confused.