Well, 8 years ago I tried to fade. Unfortunatly that proved to be impossible:
1) The elders would not let me
2) My family in JW kept trying to get me to the meetings
As I got chills down my spine whenever I visited a meeting or a convention, I finally told them not to invite me anymore. The result was them completely cutting me off for a year. When my sister finally visited me she was shocked that all she knew avoided her as long as she were together with me. She kept implying, that even if I were mobbed, the truth was the truth and I would be back again someday. That impression were reflected in the mails on FB I kept recieving from JW's, where they asked me "how were things going in the truth" and if I would like to visit a meeting together with them. Finally I posted a message on my Facebook wall, that I had no intention at all going back to "the truth", posting 2 Watchtower quotes about shunning minors in family life and limiting freedom of speech, and wrote below, that I could not accept the above why noone should expect me to ever return to the Jehovahs witnesses or visit a kingdom Hall ever again. The result was a drop of 150 "friends" from my friends list on FB and a mass of PM's from shocked witnesses telling me not to try to pull other pure hearted witnesses with me in my fall from grace. My whole JW-family including my little sister and my father deleted me from FB and cut me off. I have only momentarily talked with the old patriarch of my family. Since I cannot get in contact with the rest of my family I guess he keeps deeming me dangerous.
My point with telling this is, that one cannot freely speak ones mind in the open, as long a one insists on being a fader.
As long as you are not willing to break the chains openly, the Watchtower will keep you chained through your family and friends inside JW.
And through your family the Watchtower will keep holding you guilty of not being a part of their society.
I say:
We are NOT ashamed!
We do NOT owe them anything!
They have NO demand on our life!
