1. you want to step down as an M.S. (see my story here: http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/jw/friends/243395/1/worn-out-ministerial-servant) 2.) you offer a prayer unlike anything you have ever said. I told him that I have been reading the bible (I bought the ESV on eBay - Love it) and have been trying to apply what I have been learning to a greater extent. I asked him what do you mean by "If I am okay" he asked if I had been talking to a new group of people or have gone online. etc. LOL
its amazing how a JW's spidey-senses tingle. It's also amazing that as much as I like to tell myself that the BOrg didnt control my mind, the mere fact that JW's have spidey-senses at all PROVES the mental conditioning.
Even dumb witnesses that know nothing about the bible or what the WTS actually teaches, even THEY have spidey-senses! HOW???
Because regardless of how much or how little "knowledge" you retain from the Watchtower, the mind control, the mental conditiiong, its happening without you even knowing.
And when a fellow JW uses a word out of place, or puts emphasis in a different place than usual, or just knows more than they should about a bible topic, the spidey-senses tingle and the mind controlled JW knows something is awry.
As a former believer that is still in for family, I can still pick up on these without even realizing. Amazing