New girl in town here for support

by joyfulfader 101 Replies latest jw experiences

  • joyfulfader

    Hi everyone here on JWN. I admit to being a lurker for quite some time before joining and now I am ready to post and i want to introduce myself. I am/was 3rd generation and daughter of the PO (as it was termed at the time) for most of my life. I had doubts for a long time for oh so many reasons and last year after an unbelievably distressing situation (JW related) left me with PTSD, I walked out of the KH and never went back much to the chagrin of my parents. I wish that at 40 yrs old I would be allowed to make decisions for myself and not be held hostage emotionally because I was baptized when I was considered too young to even date (baptism is considered a more important event than marriage ya know...) My story is a long, intricate chain of events that would rival a soap opera and I am just starting the acclimation process. The choice to never go back gave me a huge sense of relief but now I have the regret of not doing it sooner and that my life is half over. Trying to readjust that feeling of a wasted life to one of rebirth at 40. This is my start :)

  • smiddy

    Welcome to the board joyfulfader


  • GrandmaJones

    Welcome. I left at 60. It's never too late. You have 45 years left to live, maybe more. Now you can enjoy them. Glad you have chosen to come out.

  • Captain Obvious
    Captain Obvious

    Welcome! Looking forward to hearing more about your story

  • james_woods

    Welcome to the board - looking forward to hearing more of your story.

  • Balaamsass

    Welcome! The Mrs (3rd Gen) and I understand. We left in our 50s. I can't whine about anywhere but here. Normal people would simply think "What a stooge". Enjoy removing the heavy burdens!

  • Diest

    Welcome. Feel free to decompress. No post is too long, no story too trivial. Welcome to free group therapy!

  • PaintedToeNail

    Joyful-Welcome! I to have left while in my 40's. I too felt the relief of realizing 'I'm neve going back'. It truly is a relief. Regret accomplishes nothing, so don't let that linger too long, or else you may wind up in depression. What part of the world are you in?

  • PaintedToeNail

    Sorry, double post

  • Sheep2slaughter

    Welcome. You have a lot of life left to live. I know a lot of very intelligent, strong and attractive 40 year old women. You're just gettin goin!

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