Aguest: No you did not. in your 7719 posts, you have not provided ONE shred of evidence which support your hallucinations are anything more than manifestation of some underlying neurological disorder or disturbance.
Sure I did, dear Bohm (peace to you!). I have stated... more than once... more than perhaps a hundred times... what I heard and what I saw. What I observed... after conducting my "test." Now, in order to you to "test" that... you would have to hear and see it, too, yes? And so, I told dear Q (peace to you!) to call me and gave him my number. You are MORE than welcome to call, as well, so that I can tell you what I "did"... so that you can "do" it, too... and "observe" the "results" that I have. I will PM my number in a sec...
You need to be aware of that fact and consider what it might imply.
I think you have your "facts" skewed, dear one. It is interesting to ME, though, that you haven't PERSONALLY tested Einstein's... or any other similar theory... yet you believe it. Based, of course, on what others say occurred when THEY tested it. Wouldn't you believe it even more if you tested it YOURSELF? So, why rely on what I and others have shared regarding this matter? Why not test it for yourself? Wouldn't what YOU personally observe hold as much, if not MORE weight... than what someone else told you THEY observed?
Visual hallucinations are not a laughing matter.
I would agree...
you may be seriously ill and in need of medical attention.
Fortunately, none of my doctors seem to think so...
Consider what it would look and feel like if you was infact ill and needed treatment, and if you would advice a person in your situation, ie. exhibiting symptoms of serious disorders, to seek professional help.
If I thought the person was ill and needed treatment, I would suggest they get it, yes. However, a person in MY situation would not necessarily fit that bill. Even so I would advise such a one to seek "professional" help; however, it would be from an expert ON the matter. Thus, I would send them to my Lord, the Holy One of Israel and Holy Spirit... JAHESHUA... the Chosen One of JAH, the MOST Holy One of Israel. I mean, he IS the best physician, both spiritually AND physically. So...
Just to take the first pick from a long list: Visual hallucinations in those with schizophrenia tend to involve vivid scenes with family members, religious figures, and animals.
Well, that rules me out. I don't hallucinate about my family, any religious figure, and certainly not animals. I am not sure what they mean by "vivid", though. I mean, I see quite clearly, but sometimes "vivid" can mean... ummmmm (yeah, I used that again)... "graphic." That's not really the case here.
Reactions to these visions can vary and include fear, pleasure, or indifference.
LOLOLOLOL! Well, that about covers the gamut of "reactions", does it not? Sort of "Salem witchhunt-ish, is you ask me ("Well, if she floats, the Devil's helping her... but if she drowns, God's condemned her... and if nothing at all happens... well, they've both washed their hands of her and since God has washed His hands, too... she's condemned and so must die.") Damned if I have fear... damned if I don't have fear. Damned if I have pleasure... damned if don't have pleasure. Damned if nothing happens at all...
The hallucinations are usually described as colorful and involving normal-sized people and objects; however, visual hallucinations of giants have also been reported.
Giants? What I see is of normal "color", dear one. I cannot say, however, that the "people" are normal-sized... as they are "people", at least, not as we describe people. As to objects... hmmmmmmm... I mean, they look like others have said they look...
I dont think you have a tumor because apparently these hallucinations have been going on for years, and you seem to be highly functional.
YOU don't think I have a tumor? Seriously? So, okay, what... if I had one I should have it removed... what, so's I can be [your interpretation] of "normal"? I think maybe you've watched one too many reruns of "Phenomenon"...
But it need to be emphasized that repeated, percistent hallucinations is something which should make one seek out the doctor, not spend 7000 posts seeking out arguments why the hallucinations may not be real, and dismiss all of them with a "peace to you", "a slave of christ" and a reference to the hallucinations and voices seeming more real than anything.
WHAT hallucinations? What have I shared here... that even equates with a hallucination? I mean, you're certainly entitled to your opinon, but I truly think that if I showed up at some doctor's office, shared what I do here... they would not deem me crazy. They would think me trying to deem MYSELF "crazy"... in order to get government assistance. I've shared nothing here that puts me in the category of schizophrenic... or even remotely mentally ill.
i know from a fact from someone at a mental institution it is very common that the voices seem more real than the real world.
Yes, this is true. The operative words here, though, are "seem more real" and "the real world." I won't elaborate... because I don't think you can handle that... yet.
I understand you get a lot out of doing this,
I do, actually. I know that I am doing the best I can to show my Lord that I love him and have faith in what he tells and shows me... including that he is alive (and not dead as even some "believers" believe). I mean, it's not a lot... and it certainly won't compensate for what he's done for ME... recently AND close to 2,000 years ago... but, yeah, I prefer that over sitting around ignoring him, yes.
and I would properly do something similar if i was really convinced my hallucinations was God himself sending me out on a special mission.
I would love to say you would, but I believe you are SO concerned with what others [might think of] you... that you'd hide that "talent" under a rock. Shove it in closet and HOPE TO GOD nothing compels you to let it out. Because you don't strike me as the particularly courageous type, dear one... but more of the "Well, okay, yeah, I hear [it/him], too, but I'm not ABOUT to tell anyone and make myself look a fool."
I really get that.
I don't think you do. Because if you DID... you wouldn't have such a problem with ME. You would say, as you did above, "Yeah, I'd probably do something similar under the same circumstances"... along with, "Yet, I'm so grateful it's NOT me... because I wouldn't want to go through what she does. But if someone has to do it... and she doesn't have a problem doing it... who am I to have a problem with HER?"
But i dont think it is very smart.
And there you go. It's NOT smart, dear Bohm. It is ENTIRELY foolish. I have NEVER denied that. To the contrary, I have openly admitted that I am a foolish one...
By your actions you may persuade people who experience hallucinations caused by serious conditions like tumors to avoid much needed medical attention because they want to soar as you put it.
You have got to be kidding. No one's listening to me, dear Bohm. SURELY, you know this.
Thank you for your attempt to diagnose me. I do believe it came from a sincere place, truly; however, it is greatly misdirected, dear one. Truly. There's nothing "wrong" with me. And please... don't think I haven't checked. With quite credible sources, actually. Even professionals. THEY don't think I'm crazy. Would they say that publicly? I don't know. People have a tendency to deny their loyalties, even turn and flee... when they think THEY might be subject to some of that... ummmm... same "persecution." Nothing new under the sun. That's why I don't rely on what others think... even if they agree.
But thank you... and, again, peace to you!
YOUR servant (still, because I AM a servant to the Household of God, Israel... even if they don't know who THEY are), and a slave of Christ,