A very long time ago .... When my three boys were very young 8,5,and 2 , I went through a severe depression . I was seeing a specialist and taking medication . I had horrible panic attacks that would then through me in to low moods of depression . I was missing quite a few meetings and service . I would force myself to get our home ready for the congregation book study that was held there on Monday nights .
After a few months of not 'snapping out of it ' our book study conductor spoke to my husband about getting me back out in service and that 'He" would work with us as encouragement . (the real pressure I am sure was it didn't look good that I was so low in hours and yet the study was still being held in our home .Which in turn made him look bad ) So they talk me into going out on a Saturday in their car group after a very short time I told my husband 'I need to go home " ; Instead we were told to get one more door ........ I walked up to the door behind my husband in a full blown panic attack ,sobbing tears ....I hid my face behind him as he spoke to the householder . When he turned around and saw how emotionally in pain I was ,he felt terrible . He took me back to the car and told the Brother we were done for the day .
I have to tell you that was hard to share ....but it just goes to show how FAR off Witnesses are from the love and kindness Jesus spoke of in the Bible . Their only agenda is to make the Publishing Company quota PERIOD . You do not matter . Thay do not care for you as a person , you are a slave expected to follow the agenda .
Shamus You are So right that JWs need all the Paxil , Prozac and Xanax to help them deal with how dead inside this joke of a religion really makes them feel . Until they open their eyes they will continue to blame 'this old system' for their ailments .
In our hall we had a sister with deformities from arthritis and she was always held up as an example for her aux service time ,it was always done in a way to shame any of the younger healthy ones as having no excuse compared to her .
Guilt ,shame ,what a lovely way to worship .