Welcome, congratulations on taking the first step and posting, it was very hard for me too.
A few years ago an elder friend of mine said to me ... "even if it weren't the Truth, I would still want to raise my children this way as it is the best way of life" .... I wasn't doubting at the time myself, so I agreed. These words haunt me now. I can't help but wonder, how can knowingly lying to your child be the best way to raise them? How can indoctrinating your children that giving up their freewill and following every word of the Governing Body as though it was coming from God is the best way to live?
You can teach your children good morals without the chains of The Watchower attached.