So, if God wants me, he knows where to find me.
You can do whatever you want with what I'm about to say. Please understand that I say it only to get you to consider something; not to judge or anything.
But I have never ever said the words that you said above.
I seek Him, through His Son, though He is always there. I 'knock' and I keep 'knocking'. I practice quieting myself, in spirit, to listen for Him, to see Him... and I keep doing these things.
I see them both (God and Christ) best in love, in forgiveness, in mercy. But I don't believe because of proof; nor for anything I can get out of it - though I do get strength, and peace, and hope, and a greater understanding of love, that continues to grow (but that's just gravy, really). I believe because I love Him. Those other things strengthen that belief, yes. But they are not the basis.
Just some thoughts, OTWO. I wish you only peace.