The kool-aid lost its flavor.
Why did you leave the 'Organization'?
Im still physically in for my family, if you count only going to conventions and the memorial, but i mentally checked out a long time ago. I can't fathom serving a God who they teach is going to destroy billions of people because they dont go to the kingdom hall. What about my neighbor who is a great person and has devoted his entire life to his Lutheran religion. He has more faith than 99% of the people in my congregation but he's going to die at armageddon? Doesn't make sense to me.
Im just going to enjoy my hopefully 80 years on this planet and have a good time. That is what i think God intended.