First of all I just wanna say much love to everybody who came by to share their thoughts and make me feel better, this means alot, it feels good to read your comments and know that I have support.
jookbeard- Yeah those C.O.'s are something else, some think they are celebrities, I'm a very observant type of dude, I watch/listen first then speak, the C.O. last month told my elders that I carry myself "like I'm too cool" I'm like what? I'm laid back by nature, I always put things in perspective, I cant help it, it's my personality, he took as me trying to be extra cool or whatever.
WuzLovesDubs- Wow. That's right, that's what they do, take your family away if you dont give up your freedom, the way you summed it up gave me chills, it hurts my heart to know I'm still connected to this cult.
finding my way- Thanks for those words, yeah I don't wanna leave her, I'm just prepared for the worst, you know a wise man always has a plan. I plan on helping my wife out, but if she doesnt want to leave, I will support her, I want our marriage to work, but knowing the type of woman she is, and she already will do what her mother, brother, other relatives want over me, I know she can easily want me out of here and I'll be stuck with no home, cause I will not make a scene or want any drama in my life. I can peacefully make my exit if it calls for that, but I'm gonna give it my best to make it work first and foremost. The whole bad association thing is dumb, I've heard a 16 year old sister tell my wife a couple weeks ago, "Why would I have a Facebook page when the brothers say not too, those that have them arent obeying God" And I'm thinking....what sense does that make??? Those are the people that eat up everything that comes from the governing body and they carry themselves like they're better than everybody else, give long comments, and are too "obedient" to let a person who is slighty not as strong as they are associate with them. JW's are cyborgs to me, I'm convinced.
rocketman- yeah good for you, I hope I can be in your shoes one day.
minimus- LOL! That doesnt offend me at all, hey....even the elders at the hall have a nickname for me, they call me "Survivor", when I was regular at the meetings last year, they would always come up to me and say "He's a survivorrrrrrr!! How's it going man, you still alive?" They would joke because they knew what kind of personality my wife has, very opinionated, very strong minded, her presence intimidates people alone, but nonetheless I love her and I'm going to be good on my end, if we fail, it will be her fault, not mine.
twinkle toes- Thanks, yeah I hate that, the whole assembly preached "Self-Examination, you can not examine your own heart if pride is in the way" I'm thinking how are you so concerned with me. When just 2 weeks ago, she got so drunk, she passed out on our living room floor and was covered in throw up, she threw up off and on for 2 hours! She turned aggressive, wouldnt let me pick her up, she punched me in the face a few times, then slept for like 10 hours and didnt remember any of it the next day. All she kept saying was "please dont call the brothers on me, I wont drink that much again". I'm thinking to myself at that assembly like "the nerve of you to be pointing the finger at me". Marriage is no joke, I'm doing my best though. And I know at my parents circuit assembly in 2007, they said myspace was a place no Witness should be, and that kids were getting caught by setting up parties through myspace and having sex, so when they mentioned "ALL SOCIAL NETWORKING WEBSITES".....everybody knew they meant everything pretty much.
babygirl- That double standard is crazy, my best friend was a baptised witness, but now he's a gay man and he's engaged to his boyfriend, and my mother will treat him like a son, because he stopped going to the meetings, he never got disfellowshipped, so she says as long as he's not DF'd, he's welcome in her home, but my aunt, her sister, she wont even talk to her on the phone about matters concerning my grandparents because she is DF'd. Sad to say even my family fits the bill of judgemental witnesses that can drive you crazy.
