Looking back over the last few weeks, I think I've been unnessarily rude to some posters and I just want to apologize to anyone who has been on the receiving end of my anger recently.
I believe that I'm so angry, dismayed, devastated and heartbroken over what's happening to my brother in law, that I've been taking it out on others and that's not right. It makes absolutely no difference what I think of the WTS as a whole, or whether or not Americans have a universal healthcare system......none of that makes any difference whatsoever when someone you love and has been like your brother for 35 years is dying and there's not a fucking thing we can do about it.
My sister just called me and there's more bad news, and that's that his disease has now progressed into the Acute Myeloid Leukemia which means he cannot start the therapy they were going to give him, as this is far more serious now. They want to start Chemo right away, but his blood counts aren't up high enough for him to survive. While transfusing the red cells and platelets are an option, the white cells aren't because his own immune system would perceive it as a foreign object and simply turn on it.
I'm sitting here bawling my eyes out as I type this. This frigging disease has not cut us one lousy break. Every time they talk to a doctor it's MORE bad news. And just when you think they can't give you any more bad news....somehow, something else horrific seems to materialize and screw what slim chances he has to survive, even further. I just feel like punching something or screaming at the top of my lungs.
Anyway, I just wanted to apologize for anyone whom I've needlessly offended........No matter how angry or upset I am, it's no one's fault on here.
Mary