Let's give CHL a bit of a break here!
How many of you have not thought about killing or hurting some SOB in your past? Or a murderer? Or a child molester?
Unlike most people, he is trying to understand the reasons behind these aberrant thoughts. Some people who are nakedly honest on this board end up with the "piling on" mentality foisted upon them. I, for one, appreciate his courage and honesty. To face personality defects, and then deal with them constructively is a process to be admired, not belittled. It is much healthier than looking down your nose at him, and ignoring your own shortcomings.
He is following the ideology of Drs. Jung and Maslow. Who really needs the therapist???
JK