Dark Impulses

by coolhandluke 124 Replies latest members adult

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  Big Tex

  Here I go again--repeating myself.

  Everyone on this board is included in the above statement.

  So, it's ok to pour gasoline on everyone and watch them die in agony!? Not the same as wanting a child molester to die. I still would not want a child molester to die in agony.

  Reading through the thread, I really think you just don't get where CHL is coming from.

  As a survivor of child abuse, I had (have?) some extremely dark impulses, hideous thoughts and a very dark side based in a very dark experience. There was a time I did want my perp to die by my hand. There was, and still is, a fear that I would be no better than him.

  I don't see any place where CHL says "it's okay", but what he is saying is these thoughts/feelings/impulses are a part of him. It is a sign of strength of character to look at the darkness within, embrace it and then choose not to act on it.

  Each one of us, including you, has our own darkness, a shadow self, that is unique. I struggling to understand your seeming need to demonize someone because he shared something very personal about himself? Are you saying it's better that we should have repress those thoughts, beat them down and never acknowldge that they are there?

  Chris
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  mrsjones5

  He has every right to examine his dark side but I think the reason why some are having such a strong reaction to what he said it because his statement set off a warning signal *danger* *danger*. The internet can be so impersonal, so much that folks can say things that they would not normally say in person - it's safer to do so. But if a dear friend came into my house and said something like that mostlikely he would not be back in my house and our friendship would be severely limited...not because I wouldn't think he was a good person but because he brought a level of fear into my house and I just can't have that being the mother of four kids. The trust would be gone.
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  KW13

  it is in my nature to seek out chaos. i love violence. i like to hurt people. i would like to watch the world burn and hear its screams knowing that im the one that poured the gasoline and lit the match. the idea of it makes me smile. this is my shadow self.

  i am not saying you are sick, but it did strike me as a bit odd, a very bold statement almost as though this is an insight into what goes on in the back of your mind, now i am not going at you and i am only curious. Victims of abuse are known to imagine hurting those that abused them in whatever form it was, sometimes in a very blood way. This image you portrayed also reminded me of none other than Armageddon, the screaming, the pain and the anguish and so on. Perhaps i'm on the wrong track here, but if you do have any issues like the rest of us, they do get worked through and in the mean time, you continue expressing yourself in whatever way you find helpful. Ironic maybe, but perhaps you do have repressed thoughts or memories from your time as a witness?

  it is healthy to out these thoughts and to put them at the front of your mind, letting them see the light of day so you can examine them and consider what is right and what is wrong, afterall this is a thought process we do, albeit on autopilot the most of the time. No one can deny that they have 'darker' thoughts, but perhaps not impulses...does that make sense?

  Anyway, from what i know of you, your not some mad axe man and perhaps at an apostafest i can buy you a beer.
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  JK666

  Big Tex,

  Amen!

  If a person hasn't had a real problem in their life, they wouldn't know one if it hit them in the arse.

  JK
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  Big Tex

  He has every right to examine his dark side but I think the reason why some are having such a strong reaction to what he said it because his statement set off a warning signal *danger* *danger*.

  That's a fair point. Caveat emptor and all that.

  I've never met the man, but of the 200+ folks I have met from this board all but one or two were in Real Life exactly as I saw them online.

  All we have on a discussion board is our words. I've found if you pay attention, read what someone says even what they don't say, you get a pretty good idea of who they are.

  Chris
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  Warlock

  Everyone has had those 'dark impulses' in varying degrees at some period in their life.

  There are at two people in everyone. The 'You' and the 'Not You'. The 'Not You' is the collective of all the people who have implanted themselves in you. The problem is finding the 'You'.

  Warlock
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  mrsjones5

  I have a dark impulse, if I had carried it out a rapist would be dead, not in a fantasy but in real life.
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  Fadeout

  The death penalty threads are full of posts about how "killing is too good for 'em" and supporting vengeful "eye for an eye" philosophies.

  CHL admits to dark fantasies contained by the more powerful rational mind, and he's suddenly a serial killer waiting to happen.

  Video games, movies, music, art, the concept of justified revenge... our society recognizes and celebrates the presence of our dark side, and has prescribed "acceptable" means of expressing it.

  One of the "unacceptable" means of expression is outright admission of its existence.

  Here goes... I admit to wishing, when I get cut off while driving, that the jerk's car hits a phone pole and bursts into flames.

  Now tell me how I need psychiatric help before I start drowning baby kitties.

  The extent of hypocrisy and self-delusion among humans never ceases to amaze me.

  Now excuse me while I read Poe...
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  mrsjones5

  I really don't think there is a right or wrong way to react to CHL's statement - just different opinions. I find it funny that some are trying to paint the negative reactions as wrong.
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  lola28

  I have to say CHL your post was disturbing, the thought of anyone taking joy in seeing someone suffer is mind blowing. Have I ever gotten mad? Yes, but I can honestly say that I have never fantasized about hurting another living creature, no matter how pissed off I was or how much they might have “deserved it”. Would any of you say that there is something wrong with me for not acknowledging my “dark side”?