Right now I would say that I am not afraid of death - and I don't dwell on it. Every now and then the topic comes up in my mind and although I get nervous at the thought of NOT KNOWING what will come afterwards - I end up shrugging it off.
I tend to be very practical about this matter and feel that whatever will be, will be in that department.
I grew up thinking that I was going to die at Armageddon - that frightened me. I never really thought I was going to live forever. My dearest friend did buy into all that crap though and has had issues coming to terms with her own mortality since leaving the JWs.
Someone posted a quote on another thread that I'd like to repeat:
From the movie, Tuck Everlasting: “Do not fear death. Fear the unlived life. You don’t have to live forever. You just have to live.”
I really like this quote, it comforts me. It combats the brainwashing of early childhood.
When I worry about dying, I try to focus on getting what I want out of life. A loving husband, a happy home, children and grandchildren. Friends that are like family. I want to learn to play the piano, I want to travel to Ireland, I want to get the most from my brief span...
The Witnesses put their lives on hold - they are joyless because they expect to have all their joy in the new system. Their lifestyle is a kind of death - a fate worse than death to me. After surviving that, I can take anything this universe has to throw at me!