hello again, following my story with this girl , and after she blocked me on fb and not answering my phone calls since december , i am now thinking of taking revenge.My feelings of pain are starting to become hate ,and pain always is accompanied by the feeling of revenge to satisfy this bad feeling.I just cant simply forget what shes done to me. The reasons of my revenge :
1.she played with my feelings when she knew from the start that she would leave me one day. Not only for her religion and her guilts but also because she had similar experience with similar case like mine which ended in tears and she told me that the guy she had 7 years ago ,still loves her.So her options were to end it at once (even though she shouldnt even start it ) or to give in and fight for it .
2.Beside the fact that we met in my country and were together all the time for 5 days , when i visited her after 3 months while we were talking all the time throug fb and skype , she told me the final day that she had made a mistake for me ,blaming the communication through pc that misled her to wrong conclusions about me . How can this stand when she made her conclusions at the first time we met?
3.Her brother insulted me very badly and on the first time he met me when i went ther.Despite the fact that i was in a foreign country and city an people on my own for the first time , he started questioning me and taunting me , saying among others that i was stupid coming to another country for just a girl.Even if i cast out the hospitality , i cant forgive him for being 34 years old and acting like that ,and she , she just told him not to talk over there , but to wait to go outside the theatre.
4.While we were together in the hotel she told me that she had a similar story to mine before 7 years and they were very attached to each other but again she had to end it from heavy guilts and told me that she didnt feel anything for him now but she didnt know how she would feel is she sees him again (so diplomatic) and that the same day she told me to just stay friends , that person texted her . So i can only think she had feelings for that guy through the years and BESIDE the fact that it was very difficult to try with me for something because of her religion ,she also had feelings for another guy, so why did she even bother for me? so cruel to mess with my feelings for nothing.
5.What did she expect? to end this as friends and be loving to each other and go on? she told me she wanted me in her life as a friend .But how can i erase all this efort i put to make it work? all the time i sacrafice? all the feelings i built from efort and pain..These feelings are rare and they dont just fade neither logic can hold them.I started to feel how unfair she was with me and how cruel she was on the end and hypocritical..
I just cant stand her , i dont wanna see her again not even when she comes for vacation to my cousin. I want her to feel pain as i did , alone without anyone to back me up.I cant stand feeling so much pain and her just moving on with her life like nothing happened.I dont want to let it go like this .At least she wont do it again to other men likeshe did to me and to the other guy.
I need some options of what should i do. How can i revenge her? i was thinking sending by fax our conversations and photos which she begged me not to show them to anyone . What other punishments do you recommend?Also ,what consequences will that have on her and on me?
Thanks