Warm welcome to the board!
Our first doubts started around 1997 when we started to experience gossip, hypocracy,backstabing and general lack of love, and what was really funny was that up till last six months we taught something is wrong with us - we are not spiritualy strong, we lack confidence in Jehovah and we should do more.
This is how I felt for years. I thought I was deficient and flawed. Up until I found the friends on this board, I thought of myself as weak and inactive; I would never go back. After "meeting" the members of this board, being encouraged to read "Crisis of Conscience" and reading the research of some on the board, I no longer carry the guilt. You've come to a wonderful place!