i've seen married men quite literally physically chasing young sisters around the hall in front of their long suffering wives.
its strange but when you stay focused on scripture you become quite certain they are not "it" so don't feel guilty. Remember jesus said you would not find him in temples or houses constructed by men, so you are not bound by any organization. You are a free person in christ and they will be jealous of your freedom and attack you because they are brainwashed and stuck in what they themselves call a scam. All I've heard since i started studying is complaining from bethelites and witnesses saying they know they don't have the truth. It's confusing but im starting to see them as more of a corporate entity than anything else.