this really works.
i've already applied the basics of this with one elder who "offered" us a shepherding visit.
we've been totally ignored since!!!
I did applied on my personal fade most of what you share here
Elders have showed up on my door. They have send me messages on my phone, some how they got my wassap n# and they kept sending me msges..I ignored them all...I did not say a word.
Sisters left "presents" on my door with "missing you notes" ..etc ...
Just ignored them all..
hey all, .
this is my first post.
i haven't been out in service or to a meeting in over a month.. i realize now that i've been having serious questions for years and many articles and talks have greatly disturbed me over the years.
Welcome! Start enjoying life from now on.
since i woke up one year ago , i've been doing a somewhat controlled fade , the experience i've had has been a very solitary one , i don't mean by not seeing anyone i know because i know hundreds in several congregations and i was an elder .
but just coming to terms with the fact that this was no longer the solution to life's problems, that i'd wasted so much time, that as i sat in the kh and heard everyone comment, my heart was no longer in it , i no longer fitted in ..... i felt that they were in the congregation all under the spell or some form of hypnosis from the wtbts,.
it was like for the first time in my experience at the kh , that i was the only one to see what was actually going on , the indoctrination, the guilt tripping, i could see it all as clear as day , and yet i had as it where a metal gag over my mouth, i couldn't speak to anyone about it for fear of them turning me into the spiritual police.
I know exactly what you mean. I felt so lonely at the KH too. Specially when you realize that everything is base on a lie. But I rather live the present and not live in limbo after a false illusion.
When ever you are ready , you will leave the KH.
I thought I would NEVER be able to do that. One day, after an awful service meeting , I arrived home, and said.. "this is the last time they will see me at the KH I got enough " Since last summer, I have not come back.
I have received a lot of msges and wasaps..etc from Elders, sisters...but I don't reply to them. Bc I know that anything I say, can be turn against me.
I hope you get enough strength to leave the KH. You will be much happier
my wife and i had business to attend to out of town today and i had thought if we made it back home in time, we'd go to the memorial.
as it turned out, we didn't get home in time and we missed it, but we had a real good talk with each other on the way home.
we are largely successful faders and at the very least, i like to try and make the memorial.
I did not go ether. First time. Elders harassed me with messages... it;s a start...
yesterday i was with a group of brothers that wanted my advice on re-roofing a home.
three of them were ministerial servants.
all of them are from the spanish congregation.
Well, I woke up in a Spanish congregation .
THE "loving" treatment of the elders and others make me realize about the organization. But I would say it;s probably harder to wake up for someone who is not very literate or is not used to question anything said. Just my opinion...
a sister came by my house today.
not to see how i was or why i have not been to meetings for the past months - she needed to borrow some money for the upcoming convention.
we chatted a little, and i cound not keep my mouth shut about some questions i have and some discoveries i made about the doctrine.
Paradisebeauty:
I hope you get your money back. I did lend money to a sister and It was like a some kind of yoke to get the money back. She would ignore me and make all kind of excuses...so I really hope you can get your money back.
Yes, when you are with JW, I feel like in a communist country, where you have to be really careful about what you say.. I am all the time. Kind of sad
I wish you the best !
so i meet sister ott zealot.
she says ah .... its lovely to see you; how are you doing.
i said yeah i'm fine thank you!
Agree with William.. a lot of them are weird..
Too funny of the story problemaddict
so, this happened a while ago - but i never posted on it.
during a co visit, he gave a talk relating to jesus ransom (i think) and the "debt" that was owed by sin, etc.... he kept saying "debt" and he kept pronouncing the "b".
so it sounded like "deb-t".
In my congo, (not English ) there are brothers, elder, MS that made words up all the time. Worst part everybody thinks the words exist because they are said from the platform.
They just don't care how ignorant they sound
anyone will atend?.
how we can follow this meeting?.
anyone will inform us live?.
I have it today, Sunday 9th.( ET )
I am not looking forward to waste 3 hs of my Sunday.
my husband and i were both born ins.
i left in 2009, and he followed me out a bit later.
we were one of those couples who followed the script, married young and ended up having nothing in common other than the religion.
I am glad that Pterist sugested to go to Al Anon. That is what is giving me some sanity when you live with an alcoholic
I know I will never find any kind of support at the Hall.. and I could never share that I am married to an alcoholic.
I wish you the best.
