I remember a conversation I had with a JW only days after I sent in my dissociation letter, and no longer considered myself JW. This person was trying to guilt me into coming back, by telling me that I was being selfish because I would not be there for my loved ones in the new system. I won't go into a long drawn out conversation that happened, but I did make two points. The first was so what if I was not there. The dead doesn't know anything, or care for that fact, and second who in the hell would want to live forever under all their rules, for all eternity. To me that sounded just like hell. That life would truly be unbearable, could you just picture how much worse those pricks would be. The longer I am away from that teaching, the more insane it sounds.