Wow it's been less than 12 hours since I posted and I have over a dozen responses already, thank you all for the warm welcome and for making me feel right at home.
@Chariklo: lol! SO CLOSE!!! You're first in my book bro. Also looking back yeah, that's obviously a sign of sexual abuse in children...I'd wished I'd known back then so I could tell someone, but by that point I'd already learned that my parents would completely ignore any issues I'd have with people in the cong and that most likely they'd flat out call me a liar and think that a "well-behaved" young man of the truth could ever do such a thing...and a nother abuse victim remains ignored.
@thecrushed: I know how rare it is for someone to not only realize the real truth about'the truth' let alone be able to get out with no regrets as young as I did, which is why I consider myself lucky (and literally the only way I think of myself as being lucky through being raised the way i was) And I love the SW references! I've always loved the SW movies and since SW:TOR came out I've been getting into the history and mythos more and more, reading the novels... SW actually helped me realize the hypocrisy of the cult pretty early on...I loved anything fasntasy based (LOTR, Forgotten Realms novels, D&D) which of course was seen as satanic, but a lot of 'brothers' I knew also loved SW, so when I asked why they were allowed to watch and enjoy SW while Jedi used 'supernatural' powers when they use the force, they tried to rationalize that it would be the equivalent of using 'God's holy spirit' LOL yeah right, they wished!!!! Further hypocrasy was revealed when I tried to compare to 'magic' in some fantasy as being explained EXACTLY how the force is explained in SW (A force of life that connects us all and flows through every living thing that only a few special one could learn how to manipulate) I probably got a decent beating for that one, but the end relization was the force was acceptable because it isnt referred to as 'magic' while anything that was reffered to as 'magic' was unavoidably undoubtably EVIL SATANIC MACHINATIONS CREATED TO STUMBLE THE FAITHFUL blablabla.
@Open mind: BGB is just a silly acronym i made for gaming back in the day and just kind of stuck, and has taken off to be a representation of myself more then any words originally used to make it. As far as anyone here is concerned theBGB stands for: Jordan (my name).
Pleased to meat you all.