Welcome! Great to have you here.
I also grew up in the "truth" and had a lot of problems with depression. Now that I have left the org, I have a much better handle on things. My little sister went thru terrible depression spells ( she was commited to the hospital many times as a teenager for severe eating disorders and suicide attempts ), but she left the org at 17, and is now 22, and her life is so much better. It seems the longer you are out, the better you get. It certainly helps coming here and finding so many others with similar experiences.
I look forward to your future posts!