B.For the born-in's/raised-in1.has the
idea of you leaving the org and becoming what the "friends" refer to
as apostates ever crossed your mind?
I was born-in. Third generation JW on
both sides of my family. According to the dictionary, an apostate is simply a
person who leaves the religion they are in. When I found out the Watchtower was
not The Truth, mentally I left, then eventually I stopped attending meetings. I
attended another church for a while. So technically, I am an apostate.
As far as the picture Apostate
Boogeyman that is painted by the Watchtower and haunts the minds of JWs, no, I
am not that.
2.when you saw wordly people getting
converted, was it for you some kind of reassurance that you were in the right
path or did you think they were crazy?
When I was in, yes it was reassuring. I
was happy because I believed it was the truth and they were getting on the path
to life.
3.were you strong in your faith or were
you looking for the next opportunity to leave the organization.
I was pretty strong. Of course, I had
cycles were I was not as active, but I was always active in meetings and
service and tried to play by all the rules. I was a ministerial servant for a
couple stints in my life. I regular pioneered for a time. It was only when I
realized it was not the truth, that I looked toward the door.
4.what
type of jw were you(the zealous type? The Spiritually-weak type? The Moderate
type?the Potential fader? The holier than tough type? The humble &
well-meaning type?...)
I believe I was the humble and
well-meaning type. And a moderate. In JW terms, when I became a low hour publisher
eventually because going out in service was so anxiety inducing, in the Watchtower
view, I was viewed as “spiritually weak”. But I was still active and doing my
best.